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Legal Action

Ashley talks about picking up her summons, and reflects on how she's learned from her mistakes.

Ashley Holmes

Hey everyone! I'm going to say now, this blog is going to be a little boring I think. I'm soo tired right now. I don't feel like saying too much.

OK, where do I begin? How cute is the Giudice family? I love them. I loved it when Gabriella told Joe that he should buy Teresa flowers and chocolates for their anniversary. SO PRECIOUS! They are all mini-Teresas! They are Daddy's girls for sure. P.S. Who else is super jealous of the ring Teresa got?

Jillian, I doubt you are reading this, but I just wanted to tell you way to go hun! You did such a good job, and you don't need to worry about anyone "judging" or "not liking" you. Forget them if they do. You're talented and young, the world is yours for the taking. Keep it up! xo.

How many of you felt bad for Jillian in that scene of her with her mom? Isn't Danielle scary? I felt so bad for Jillian, she looked like she needed a hug. I'm glad Danielle isn't my mother. I hope her kids realize what kind of person their mother is before it's too late for them. Christine is beautiful, and Jillian is talented. Neither daughter inherited those traits from their mother. They don't need her, they have their dad and step mom. I hope they get away as fast as they can. That's just my opinion though. I am definitely praying for them.

I love my cousins. They're so funny, especially when they are together. The way they play off of each other is so great. I loved watching the scene in the gym. I felt so bad for Albie! HAHA! But it was a funny scene.

As for the sweet sixteen scene, WOW, so much I could say about this and their prior scene together. However, I'm not even going to get into it. If people haven't caught on by now that Danielle is a pathological liar, they're probably just as "lost" as she is. That's all I have to say about that.

In the scene where I went to pick up my summons with my mom, there's no need to tell me, I KNOW I LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT. I blame some of it on editing, the rest was just me being immature. I wasn't excited for court, obviously. I didn't even remember saying that, HA! To quote my Aunt Caroline's blog:

"As reality show participants we have the unique opportunity to view ourselves from the outside looking in. I'm hoping that Ashley will look at her behavior along with her attitude towards Jacqueline and make a conscious effort to move in a positive direction."

Caroline is absolutely correct. Since we last filmed, I have grown a lot as a person. I still make mistakes along the way, but I definitely learn from them. Every time I watch an episode, I grow even more. As my aunt said, we can view ourselves from the outside looking in, and I have seen a lot that I need to improve. Most of it I already knew, but it's just another reminder of things I needed to and still need to change. I am young, but I am not a kid. I am going to be 20 in a few months. I am not going to use my age as a crutch for how I acted and have been acting. I know it was wrong to pull Danielle's hair. I am sorry for how it happened, but I do not regret it. Everything happens for a reason. I do not like Danielle, I have plenty of good reasons not to. I don't like her, and I never will. That doesn't mean that I didn't learn from the experience. I don't need to like her and forgive her for all she has done in order to learn something from all this. If you all still think that I'm a bitch for not feeling sorry for her that night, then fine. I tell things like they are, not how they should be. I'm not about being fake. I'm not going to sit here and say, "I wish her the best, I am so sorry, blah, blah, blah," like SOMEONE else does. To be honest, I don't wish her well. I just hope karma catches up with her one day. I have been trying to not talk about her, and for the most part I haven't. What some people have to realize is #1. I have people asking me questions about her, and the show, and I'm not going to ignore people's questions. #2. Seeing these episodes rehash a lot of angry feelings I have towards her and writing my blog and on commenting on my Twitter and Facebook is my way of venting. #3. Danielle is STILL currently trying to mess with my life. So, sorry if you have a problem with it. I do have a life besides being "obsessed" with Danielle. HA! I have a job. I go to school. I just recently started an internship in the city. I have another internship in the city coming up in the fall. I am looking into getting an apartment. Things are going REALLY well for me right now! I spend most of my free time with my boyfriend Derek, (we have been happily together for a year and three months now) and my amazing friends. I spend the rest of my free time with my wonderful family. I really am blessed, and I have been working hard to not let any negativity get me down. I am happy with how things in my life are going. I see a bright future for myself.

I think I covered pretty much everything. If I didn't, I'm sorry! It's currently 3 a.m., and I had a long day in the city today! Which reminds me, thank you to everyone that I met in the city today (7/27) at the Maroon 5 concert! Your support and kind words mean so much to me, you have no idea! THANK YOU ALL!

If this is your first time reading my blog, I just want to kindly ask you to please support 'To Write Love On Her Arms' and spread the word about them. It really is such a great organization. You can check out their website and find out more about them at: http://www.twloha.com/

Until next time,

xoxo, Ashley